When I found out I was pregnant with a girl I grieved for a few days because I know what it means to be female in this world, and it fucking sucks. Because #MeToo includes harassment as well as assault I’ll go out on a pretty sturdy limb and wager that every woman for the past 5,000 years has experienced it. My four-year-old daughter has fucking experienced it. When I took her to the doctor for her two-year check up the pediatrician, a jovial old white man, commented on how beautiful she is; that the boys are going to be lining up for her. Yuck! If you think that’s innocent I invite you to imagine the equivalent being said abut a toddler boy. “Little Johnny’s quite the stud! He’s going to break a lot of hearts, wink wink.” It’s sexualizing children and it’s gross.
For about ten months now I have been graced with recurring yeast infections. They’ve been minor, but still extremely irritating, and very, very persistent. For those of you who’ve never had the delightful experience of a yeast infection, it shows up as itching and inflammation in the lady parts. It’s horrible, basically, and has been a constant in my life since January 1. I literally got the first symptoms on New Years.
In light of the tragedy yesterday I was reflecting on what, if anything, to post and the Hoʻoponopono mantra came to mind. That was instantly followed by a visceral WRONG. It's too soon to forgive. Which brought me to this post on the topic of forgiveness which I wrote on my personal blog several weeks ago. So I'm re-posting it here with an intention of blessings, healing, and light to everyone touched by the devastating events yesterday.
So here goes- Forgiveness. It’s one of the main teachings in every religion and a central tenet of all the woo woo stuff as well (Abraham-Hicks, Course in Miracles, I Am the Word, etc). Forgive everyone everything. When you don’t forgive it’s like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. Sound familiar? I totally get it and 100% believe that our growth is limited by the degree to which we wish others harm. How could it not be? And yet...
by April b.
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